Can't sleep. blah. always try to get my schdeule back to normal and it never works. i only sleep for three hours cause my body thinks im only napping. so then i wake up at 2-3 am and lay there then get up. why, why does my body make me stay up till 5-6 am everyday!!!?

And im so busy! and i've actually wanted to draw like crazy, but i can't draw what i want cause of the darn childrens book! but at least thats keeping me drawing and im liking them so far cause i dont hafta worry about what a teacher has to say about them! hee hee! its so much better when you have your own freedoms, though the lady is kinda strict on what she wants, telling me what she wants the illustrations to look like. but im getting more freedoms as i get more done cause she sees that yeah i do know what im doing! lol! but whatever im not complaining right now, its a job and im getting paid! yay! but i sooo wanna make a kickass illustration right now but can't...im in childrens mode right now. and damn, my galleries ugly. ill be remodling soon, moving a lot of it to scraps and updating, putting in new things. well im gonna write or something since my brains so confused what time it is!

and marcus and i have been trying to diet better. i just wanna get back into shape...he wants to lose 20 lbs. we ate at lonestar tonight. lol so much for that!